11 more pounds to go. I do not trust my scale as its always going up and down, so I need to get weighed at a professionals office for the real thing. However, this means I have lost weight gradually and 14 pounds since feb 1st. You cannot tell and I still feel fairly fat. I look in the mirror and still see my wide hips and full thighs. It's like if I can't see bone when I bend down, I'm mad. Messed up head. Lately I have been horrible about eating a right amount. I wanted a Luna bar before bed so I had to subtract it from monday's(!) allotted calories. Jeez, Ellen, control yourself. I'm considering making Sunday a cheat day--not a binge, but allow myself whatever I want which probably totals 1500-2000 calories or more. I don't count those days because there's no point. I haven't decided if I'm doing this yet because often it leads to bingeing and purging.

Gonna go to bed.