B: Oatmeal with soy milk, canned peaches, and walnuts
S:banana
L: Salad with honey mustard, tofu, cucumbers, and a few croutons
about (15?) honey wheat pretzels

As for the rest of the day, I will probably have a granola bar before class at 6 and may buy myself something to eat before or after class.

I hope I can just keep this food in today and not want to restrict tomorrow or b/p tonight. Do I actually have the potential to eat normally? Whoa.

I was SO excited to eat my tofu salad. I am such a dork. I was sitting in class (an extremely boring one at that) on Facebook and pinterest and i couldn't wait to just be done and go indulge.

:) mmm I keep googling vegan recipes and so badly want to try veganism again, but I love things that rent vegan like...honey mustard...and gummy candy...and sadly, cheese.

I think I will just eat a lot of vegan/healthy foods but not "be" vegan, which is so hard for me to only be half of something. I am SO black-and-white about everything.

I LOVE:
tofu
almond butter
veggie burgers
luna/clif/lara bars
oatmeal
nuts
baked goods
etc.
I want to try to experience cooking tempeh, quinoa, and many vegan recoups.

Now if only I had time to bake/cook....

all over the place

Binge/purge.

Restrict.

Eat normally. :)

Eat normally.

Binge/purge.

Restrict.

Eat normally.:) I can do this.

Binge.

Restrict.

This is my life.


:( WTF do I want?

Thinness or an offing life?!

Better decide.

I am "happy" when I restrict, I am miserable when I b/p, and when I eat normally, I am happy for like a day and then am sooo miserable.

Everything leads to unhappiness.