Dull day

I will continue this post later, but right now I needed to vent before I go out with my friend. I ate a normal lunch and dinner today despite feeling disgusting and bingeing last night. I cannot keep food in my room. I am so sick of always starving, bingeing,or purging. It would make SO much more sense to just eat "normally", but that's not as easy as it seems. An eating disorder, by definition, is irrational so it makes sense why I can't just "snap out of it." (and believe me, I've been told that) I freaking would if I could...and would have 7 years ago!

Okay...Ill edit this post laster:)