Criticism

Mom:" Oh my god. Look at your arms. What do you weigh? 90 pounds?"
Me: " Mom! No. I am fine. I weigh 120. It is still healthy!"
Mom: " Well, you don't look healthy. You look much different than when you left treatment.
Me: "Nuh uh."

^ Okay, yes, I lost weight since treatment. I would make a horrible lawyer--I never can defend myself. I just say nope, nuh uh, or no. I don't know what else to say. I don't want her to worry. I AM still healthy. I am getting my period still (a telling sign of health according to my MD), am at a healthy BMI, still eat a variety of foods, etc. I just watch my calories. Yes, I have an eating disorder and am working on not bingeing and purging as much. Am I at an anorexic weight? Absolutely not. Am I bingeing as purging as often in the past? Definitely not. Therefore, I am healthier.

I swear if the feedback came more out of care than anger, I would be more receptive. It just makes me mad when you approach me with frustration or anger. I do have to understand I cannot begin to know how it feels like to be in her position and to have watched her baby girl battle this for 7 years.<3 It breaks my heart just thinking about it.