- I HATE this class and the professor
-I felt like crying when I attempted the first reading in January and never picked the book up again
- The professor is a total jerk and I would not ask him for help because I have too much pride
-I missed 3 classes
-I was busy and studied somewhat this weekend, but you can't cram a ton of info in 2 days
-Being the oh-so-wonderful man he is, he used NONE of the practice essay questions on the test....therefore, I was screwed and knew NOTHING about any of them
Blah--I am trying not to let this ruin my day/semester. In past semesters, I would let this ruin all chances I had and never go to the class again. And I would probably stop trying in every class and chalk it up to me being stupid and not capable. I am fighting with this. I want to cry now because I am a huge perfectionist as much as you cannot tell from looking at my GPA. I am repeating "I'm not stupid...it's okay" in my head a lot and trying to move on with my day.
Oh, and I haven't binged/purged since Thursday:) I know that I haven't had much of a chance since then as I mainly do it when in Oakland, but still it's progress nonetheless.
I don't feel like blogging much now, but just wanted to vent about the test.
Rest of my plans today include the following:
- Class
- hopefully doing some reading
-Possibly watching desperate housewives on my laptop(resist,ellen....schoolwork!)
- eating lunch in my car
-tutoring
-seeing Danielle because she's helping me review for powerpoint quiz tomorrow (which will be a joke compared to today's test) and we might run errands
At least I am wearing a cute outfit today:)
A manager of mine made me try on black super skinny jeans during work the other day and I very hesitantly did. They actually were cute...imagine that. I am usually opposed to skinny jeans(although I have a pair or two) and would NEVER touch super skinny jeans let alone tell them my size/ show them to coworkers but I did. And bought them. Yay for small victories.
Ellen
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