going crazy. what else is new?

feel fat. disgusting. can't stop bingeing and purging. need to restrict. want to get better. want my bones to stick out. want a new therapist. want to keep my same one. want to be young again. want to die. hate myself. want to protect the young,innocent child in me.

conflicting thoughts.

feel alone. everyone says God can help me...but where is he?

I never feel his presence.

I cry and feel pain and that's it.

:(